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January 20, 2007

女人想忘記是因為放不下…

女人想忘記是因為放不下…

  和一個網上的好朋友在深夜聊天﹐談到那段曾經讓她傷心欲絕的感情﹐提及那個讓她失望過熱愛過的男人﹐她說﹐我想我已經在忘記了﹐雖然還常常憶起﹐但是已經沒有最初的那種痛了﹗我還要繼續的忘記﹐總有天我會把他放在內心深處的角落裏。

  可是說著說著﹐她又有些動情起來﹐提到了前幾天他曾經給他發過的短信來過的電話。她說﹐我罵了他一頓﹐質問他到底有沒有為我考慮過。

  然後她突然感傷起來﹐說到﹕或者他平靜下來之後﹐過了許久之後﹐再想起我們之間的一切﹐他會覺得我是世界上最愛他的人﹐對他最好的女子吧﹖

  女人對待感情永遠不能象男人那般理智﹐涇渭分明。即使過了很久﹐當自己覺得傷口已經漸漸愈合﹐回首從前的過往﹐還會情不自禁的對那個男人心存幻想。女人永遠也不能對自己深愛過的男人艱心的拒絕﹐徹底的忘情。

  想要在他心裏留下美好的回憶﹐是因為還愛著。想要拼命的努力的忘記與他的過去﹐是因為心裏還是留戀著愛情的餘溫﹐不忍割捨和放下。你會對一個不再有感情的人有依戀嗎﹖你會對你完全不在乎的人抱有期盼嗎﹖不會﹐絕對不會。

  我們不用自主的去想起或者刻意的忘記一個人﹐都只是因為﹐我們還有舊情﹐我們並沒有從心裏﹐把那個人的影子抹去。

  曾經我也有過失戀的感覺。最初是天要塌下來了一樣﹐感覺一切都了無生趣﹐每天都覺得說不出的煎熬和 疼痛。那個時候﹐我無論如何也不願意接受一段感情已經走到了盡頭的事實﹐總是還期待著﹐崇敬著﹐幻想著﹐有天我們還能和好如初﹐就像每一次彆扭了爭吵了之 後﹐再復合﹐感情比從前更好更深﹐彼此更加離不開對方。

  時間過的久了﹐兩個人彼此的聯繫越來越少。有很多個瞬間突然想起他﹐就莫名其妙的煩躁和焦灼起來希望他不要忘了自己﹐希望他會主動的和自己聯繫。在心裏不停的說服自己﹐與他縱使做不了戀人﹐也想要刻意保持著朋友的關係﹐相互惦記。

do u agree?

                            

December 15, 2006

我的心情

不明白为什么有些人不会有自知之明
不会见风使舵
人家做到那么明显叫你不要再烦
你却三番两次的提起那个人
不懂你是在发姣着, 还是在博什么屁!!!
我信姣占了很大的 percentage !!
他对你有那么重要吗?
我看当然重要啦。。。
没有了他,没有人保护你,疼你,做你的真朋友 。。
没有了他,你没得姣。。。
所以当然重要啦。。
要不然为什么你看不懂他的意思
除非你盲了,和智商低
盲了,是因为没看到他要你做的东西,
智商低,是因为你看不明他的意思。。
要不然为什么你一直在提他。。
他怎么了,管你屁事啊?
简直像一只大便虫那样!!!
何谓大便虫?
你懂什么是大便? 你懂什么是虫?
不懂就自己想!!!
你, 看到你就令我反胃 ..
我还是不明白为什么这个世界上有你这样的人..
那么"纯情"到"假"的感觉!!
好心你用脑想啦!!!
sik do 点!
不要次次要人家做到很出面..
你才 get 到什么意思..
真是有够蠢和令我讨厌!!!!

October 19, 2006

changed

everything changed. all r not same as b4 not same as beginning.   

wat cause it happened?

i really dunno ..

September 07, 2006

my mood

BAD MOOD BAD MOOD BAD MOOD BAD MOOD BAD MOOD BAD MOOD BAD MOOD BAD MOOD BAD
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Daisei

September 01, 2006

miss her

my sis today fly to taiwan ..
320pm flight ..
we arrived KLIA at 12pm ..
then teman her dunno wait wat ..
230pm she checked in ...
c her walk into d gate ..
sudenly i feel wanna cry bcoz i felt tak biasa my life without her ..
but i no cry ..
after back home .. i saw my house "lang cheng cheng"
really tak biasa ..
no ppl teman me fight,
no ppl teman me go pasar malam
no ppl teman me go shopping when i boring
no ppl help me do this do tat ..
no ppl at home b "penjaga rumah"
no ppl everynite on9 until late nite stil dunwan sleep ..
no ppl borrow me money when i no money to use ..
alot alot ..
when she is here n fight wif me
i juz hope she can disappear in front of me
but now she not at home aledi ..
alone go taiwan study ..
i very worry abt her ..
she nvr leave d home for so lama
1st time go so far for study n leave home for few yrs ..
i really worry for her ..
i miss her ...

August 21, 2006

a boring blog this time

long time no update my blog adi since 1 month ago i fuck d fat chicken until now.. haha

15-8-06 received 99roses from dear, hehe ..
although d roses nyawa-nyawa ikan liao..but stil happy la coz lama no receive flowers adi.

afternoon go mid valley wif 2 sohpoh ..
1 of them wanna buy swimsuit ..so teman her choose..
another sopoh early aledi go mid n meet us at afternoon ...
dunno wat she doin at there..
we guess she meet fren or go dating wif someone ..
haha ..
but she dun wan tell us ..until today i also dunno wat d purpose she went mid earlier than us
LOL ..
conclusion : funny day this day

17-6-06 went melacca for 4 days
go mlc after cls .. reached there aledi dinner time
today nth to do .. jzu at home .. watch tv..
wanna go eat self-service satay but d satay stall open at 12am ..
we wait until 1145pm wanna go makan,
but afraid of d dog outside ..
n scared when come back, no ppl help us halau d dog
so in d end, wait for few hours d plan was canceled..
den we go ooi ooi liao .. hehe

18-06-06 do nth at melacca
3pm reached mlc, den dear go n do hair ...
4 hours waiting there .. ><" wait until i sien aledi ..
somemore i flu.. very feeling not well..
after finish do hair..
we went to seaside..hehe
go there sit sit n c d sea view
den had satay celup as dinner ..
after dinner, we went to "ji chang jie" .. sth like pasar malam or chi cheong kai 1 ..
og there walk walk n eat shong .. lol ..
whole day pass like tat .. feel like without doin anythng meaningful in d day ..

19-06-06 dinner wif family
nth to do again on afternoon ...
watch tv, do mask, go walk giant, go buy spec
den nite go dinner ..
after dinner went to walk malay pasar malam..
play snooker .. den back home ..
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nite argue wif dear abt d sharing room ..
until very very not shong ..

20-06-06
wake up at 11am ..
watch tv until 2pm only lunch ..
go out makan abc den back home kemas bag wanna back kl liao ..
on d way back kl, sesak jln + car no petrol ..
damn .. very scare d car really no petrol liao den stop at d road ..
tat time i really wan to scold ppl adi ..
d oil signal keep blinking ..
den i at there juz diam diam n pray for d petrol station appear faster ..
hahah ..luckily .. got a petrol station there
lol
add liao oil den back kl lu ¬¬

21-06-06
so tired today ..
go out eat tau fu fa wif fren den went 1u a monkey n gwen..
dunno y, feel like no mood to shopping.
but c alot nice cloth, feel like wan to buy all ..
but no money .. T_ T..
wuwu ...
had kenny rogers as dinner ..
erm .. i prefer nando's than kenny rogers..

now .. is after came back from 1u
need to start to do my thesis liao ..
haih .. very dulan ..
beczo i dunno how to do .. n dislike d supervisor
so pressure on thesis..
tmr need to go skol to search some info abt d thesis ..
now on9-ing, but nth to do
so update my blog ..

July 05, 2006

fucking bad luck this week !!!

i will remember today 6/7

kena chap 9 9 by FSA tutor ..

damn ...

dunno y everytime FSA tutorial , she sure aimed someone to scold

today so unluckily kena aimed by her

dunno y started from this week, i feel i very bad luck ..

sunday big big argue wif sis den packed my thing leave d home n go my fren hostel there overnite. i had my dinner at 1st station at 11sth nite. i ate ice-cream n thai sauce chicken rice n cause me 2nd day sore throat badly. damn

monday car kena bang by d car wash fella .. so stupid his driving skill

tues OD tutorial, tutor asked our group students present d answer we wrote on d white board but no one willing to go out present. we can know tat tutor aledi giv us black face but we stil sitting there dun wan diu her. den she said deduct our mark. sohai betul. quite dulan when listened she say like tat, use marks to threaten us to go out present. fuck !!!!!

wed go meet d thesis supervisor, he is my OD lec. i think he misunderstand me sth. he tot i nvr been his cls b4. but d truth is i hv been attend his cls for few times but he cannot recognized me coz i always sit at the middle of cls but he stand in front. damn!!!!!! he asked me to attend his cls on this fri if not he will bar me in exam. apa lanjiao, another threat again! CH!!

den today kena aimed by d fat gold hair chicken. i dunno how to do is my business lar. u so 8 peduli for wat. i dunno how to do den u should teach us la. abuthen y u bcome a tutor? issit to scold ppl or to release ur bad mood or anything? duno y i feel ur personality really hv prob lor!!! y everytime tutorial also must aim someone to scold? scold ppl issit very happy for u? now only i can understand d feeling being scold like a dog in d tut n i felt very pity to other ppls who kena scold b4 too.

very very very very dulan lor!!! whole week studies also not goin good..  n make me feel very very stress on it. furthermore, next 8 n week9 very very busy for assgment n midterm n presentation. add up all pressure on study, i feel like wan to stop my study now. d most i hate for study is d invisible stress. dunno y those tutor n lecturer in this week all lei yeh or kena fei by their gf or bf or someone mati in their house. Or mayb only me one ppl bad luck n all bad luck thing happened on me!!!

relation wif mommy not very good too sicne tat day big argue wif sis n leave d home. but this 1 i dun diu her la. she aledi go my dad's shop for help for almsot 2 weeks. i think she must b very tired so no mood to chat wif n face us.

this week my mood really down!! sorry for someone who tolerance wif me although i always cari fight wif him in this weeks. haih. sorry ya dear.

May 12, 2006

happy happy~

seems like i have been long time din write sth here aledi
hahaha ..
now im hving my 2nd weeks holiday..
1st im very happy tat i pass all my paper.. lucky~~
2nd im happy tat i had an ejoyable holiday on last week

recently i like 2 song, gary-superwomen and xiao wo ben
i was listen to this song for almost 2 weeks everyday
hahha .. it brings me a feeling tat make me feel comfortable, relax ..
n thinking of someone ..

April 23, 2006

crazy

stil hv 4 more days to go ...
3 paper lar... so charm .. T_T
dunno y feel very stress now
dun hv d motivator to motivate me go study
feel like wanna lying on bed n tan lang hei enuff
otuside so hot ..
hot until i feel very mang zhang ...
add alot thing need to fikir ...
my brain cannot afford adi ..
these day feel pening pening only ..
cannot concentrate well ...
hard to concentrate too
haiyo ...
HAI ~ YA~~~~~~
crazy la!!!!!

March 20, 2006

cant sleep

now 606am ..
i aledi wake up for 1 hour coz disturbing by someone who asking me some mou liu quest
i abit bit giv tat person za dou!!!!!!
one hour ago she sms me say this
one hour later she sms me say tat ..
i also dunon wat she trying to tell me, wta she wants, wat she mean now!!
damn ..
i feel sorry for wat im doin which make u feel unhappy
but i din mean it ..
now is my turn to know wat is next goin on ...